I'm Hurt Deep Inside

Felt so down lately... Reviewing my blog posts and just realize I never thought of anything while blogging.. I just simply type what I felt on that split second.. And now It's raining... Making me feel like crying... I think that it has been a burden for some time, but I can't cry it out. I kept it for all this time and now I feel like I might explode. Loving is not an easy thing. I have been always aware of that, but somehow I felt so hurt. This might just be my ego, but I really feel like I might have fallen out of love. And thinking of it makes me want to scream out... I'm so stressed out these few days, now this? I am having tests most likely everyday, now I have to face love problems... How am I going to survive this?

You came to me in my dreams
You made me happy, you made me fly
You gave me a cheer while I was down
You supported me into reaching for my goal
Now that I am finally awake,
I finally realize
You are just my dream
A dream that I had always feared of
The fear I used to avoid
And now you are bringing this fear back into me
I am feeling like a volcano
Waiting to erupt
Now my head is splitting
thinking and considering
whether to let this dream drift me
or to let it die in vein
My dream,
please tell me what to do