Real Bad Luck vs Real Bad Mood....

So, let's begin this competition... My luck has turned 180 degrees since like a week ago... Computer virus, breaking and accidentally bumps or bangs on something, stupid and boring private class, and the list goes on... Bad mood? Because of the bad luck I suppose? My mood too have turned... Not really 18- degree dramatic, but I really felt down lately... Got a few good news, then a lot of bad ones... I still can smile, but deep inside I am tearing... Really need someone to talk to.... Got my heart raced up by knowing someone impersonated somebody I look up to... Really twisted up sick story... and as I am typing this, I felt like puking because if I try to remember what happened lately, I felt like someone is playing pranks in my life. And I hate not being able to take control of my own life... My luck dried up. I who always (and I mean always as in most of the time like a 90 percent of my life) get correct guesses, have lots of luck, getting everything I wanted, doing anything I wanted, and all that.. now is at my lowest... Really really sad, but I can't cry... Everyone would think it's such a scam that I say my life is lucky... and cried now that my luck has faded...

A cry in pain,
A call in the rain,
A pain my the heart,
A call in midnight,
A tear that falls,
A shout that calls,
A friend that mails,
A friend that cares,
A luck that changes,
A mood that fades,
A glow that disappears,
A smile that is gone,
Can't lie that I'm happy,
Can't say I am sad,
Can't show I'm mad,
Can't prove I regret,
Life passes on...
Life moves too fast for me to realize...
I lost my loved ones once...
And I don't want to love again...
It's sad to remember,
But memories last,
To think of live,
To think of love,
To think of smiling,
I can't do it all...
Not anymore...
I need a friend who would see me in my lowest,
To rejoice in my happiness,
Who would crack jokes when I'm bored,
Who would find a way to make me smile again..
Live is too precious to be wasted..
So, I'm abandoning this dream of finding this friend..
I'll go on with my life, as it is...
Walking alone is not such a bad thing...
I'm used to it already.
Being taken to a happy place,
And dropped down from the sky...
Felt it...
There's no pain greater that this...
So, I will be walking alone...
It's hard, but it's better than thrown away....





Let this fragile body drift in the crowd...
I don't need anyone...
I don't need Love...
I don't need a life...
I don't need me.......